Happiness is letting go

HappinessSounds easy enough, but what does it mean?

“Happiness is letting go of what you think your life is supposed to look like & celebrating it for everything that it is.”

Most of us have an idea of what our lives are supposed to look like, based on outside influences, culture, family history, media, societal norms, etc. Most of our lives are spent in pursuit of the ideal life defined for us by experiences as we are growing up.

We set personal goals that include things like:

  • attend University, trade school, travel abroad
  • have a prestigious career and rise to executive rank
  • live in the city, suburbs, country
  • buy a house, boat, car
  • be a stay at home mom/dad
  • be an entrepreneur
  • live alone
  • have children
  • get married
  • write a novel, play, poem, blog, song
  • travel the world
  • fall in love

Rarely, if ever, do our goals include things like:

  • raise an autistic child
  • bury a loved one
  • be the primary caregiver of an aging parent
  • declare bankruptcy
  • love an addict
  • live with bi-polar disorder
  • put a violent child/family member out of your home
  • get into an abusive relationship
  • close a failed business
  • get a divorce
  • get laid off
  • have a miscarriage
  • suffer from depression

Yet, despite our best efforts and admirable attempts at the ideal, at some point we will face life situations that are not what we imagined for ourselves.  When this happens, we have two choices.  We can look at the situation and label it as sad, hard, screwed up, sucky, miserable, burdensome, hopeless, dismal, overwhelming, isolating. We can sit in a state of constant pity for ourselves, wallowing in the misery of our situation, believing no one’s life is harder than our own. Focusing on what we see as ‘wrong’ dulls what we think is ‘right’.  In reality, there is no wrong or right, there is only what IS.

The second choice we are given is one of acceptance. Accepting our life as it IS in this moment is the pathway to happiness. Our monkey minds spin around labeling each experience hard/easy, good/bad, lucky/unlucky, success/failure. Accepting that every experience is exactly the experience that we need and every experience comes to us exactly when we need it, liberates us to find gratitude for our life as it IS.

Watching Alzeheimer’s slowly take my grandmother away, there were many days that I wanted to stay home and wallow in self-pity rather than sit with her. Most days she didn’t know my name, she rambled on about her childhood boyfriends and people I never knew. Finding gratitude in those moments saved me. I’m one of the lucky ones who was given the opportunity to know her grandmother as a child, carefree and silly. I became her girlfriend and we chatted about trips she had taken and men she had known. I learned to accept her in the moment, let go of expectation, and be grateful for what I had, not resentful for what I’d lost.

My father died of brain cancer. His illness gave me the chance to reconcile a difficult relationship.

My step-father died of colon cancer. Our conversations deepened and we left nothing unspoken.

My grandfather died suddenly when I was hundreds of miles away.  I didn’t get to say good-bye but I never saw him sick.

The practice of acceptance is done moment by moment, day by day. Some days are easier than others. I look at empty relationships and feel sadness, desiring a deeper connection, but in that moment I remind myself to feel gratitude for the lesson, to accept what the relationships are and to release any expectations I have.

All sorrow is a result of our wanting things to be different than they are – the resistance to what IS. Releasing expectations does not mean that we give up hope. Hope is what remains when we surrender to what IS and celebrate all that we have.

 

 

 

I’m for PEACE

The media stirs an acidic pot, headlines of war and videotapes of beheaded journalists, young men killed by the officers charged with protecting them, school children gunned down in their classrooms, health clinics bombed, houses of worship burned. World leaders struggle to find a solution. Friends debate issues, methods, morality and history. Fear cracks our armor creating a space that divides and weakens. Instead of fellow humans, we become christians, muslims, black, white, conservative, liberal, pro-life, pro-choice. With each label, we lose a little more the ability to see others as coming from the same Source that created us all.

A comment on facebook adds hate to a tragic situation. Driven by fear others respond. Soon the feed is filled with calls to “Bomb those f-ing a-holes!” and “Wipe the Middle East out!” Sadness grows heavier, like lead running through veins weighing down limbs, sickening stomachs, burdening hearts. There is no defense. Words read cannot be erased. Instantaneously, our state of being in the world is altered and we are shrouded in a cloud of dark energy. As a result, low energy vibrates from each of us, contributing to the greater universal energy of which we are all a part.

Let us choose not to participate. Not to add to a conversation filled with hatred. Let us give no reason for others to spew negative energy into our universe. Not one extreme thinker will be swayed with words for words are easily misunderstood. Words will not stop evil. Passionate debate filled with hatred will not stop evil. Guns and tanks and bombs will not stop evil.

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“Only angels can defeat demons.” –Frank Ferrante

As a society we have to change the way we discuss different viewpoints and express opinions, moving from debate to problem solving. Being aware of word choice and tone we can consciously move the vibration of each encounter to a higher level. The resulting resonance will itself create universal benefits.

Move into the day intending to touch one person with kindness. Post one affirming comment on facebook showing solidarity and support for those who have accepted the burden and responsibility of leading this world out of the darkness. Set an example of love and peace. Praying, each in our own way, for minds to be opened and hearts to be softened. Send light into the world, with the intention to heal not only our own wounded hearts, but with it, the heart of humankind. For at the divine source of it all, we are one.

The world has been caught in a vicious cycle of war. Killing begets more killing. Hate begets more hate. There is no end in sight unless we make a change. Instead of hate, let us try love. Instead of war, let us try peace. All of the goodness in the world is needed now to raise the vibration of universal energy, consciously creating a more peaceful world.

“We are peace. We are war. We are how we treat each other and nothing more.” –Alternate Routes

4 Life Lessons Learned on Vacation


The condo is quiet this morning.  The stillness in sharp contrast to previous mornings, coffee time interrupted by drowsy bodies slowly filtering in from their rooms seeking food, coffee, and connection at the beginning of the day.

By 11am most mornings, even the late risers had joined the group to gather in our condo for Mario Cart, Facebook, email, and morning talk shows.  Despite the fact that the morning routine began before 8am, not once was the group assembled in its entirety to leave before noon.  Inevitably, if we were able to gather seven together, as the last two would arrive, one or two of the originally gathered would find reason to leave and the wait would continue.

Lesson learned: Gathering 9 people is like herding cats. – institute a Buddy System next time.

Beach Volleyball, grocery shopping, Wits and Wagers, movies in, Mario Cart, Heads Up!, puzzles, paddle boarding, Word on the Street, movies out, high ropes courses, shopping, zip lining, Nertz, golf, pool time, jigsaw puzzles, deep sea fishing and more grocery shopping.  No time for reading, writing, or resting.

Lesson learned: Teenagers are high energy. – think “like vacation with toddlers” and rest before you leave home.

I’m not certain exactly what our expectations were for this week when we originally started planning.  Over the months, the plan morphed several times.  Friends were invited, accepted and declined.  Rooms were added, subtracted, and added back in again.  At one point there were 14 possible attendees on the list and we were talking about buying air mattresses.  At another time, we didn’t know if anyone would be joining us at all and we considered auctioning off the two extra condos.  Somehow it all worked out perfectly, three condos, six kids, one aunt, and the two of us.

Lesson learned: Trust the process. – everything is just as it should be.

And now the realization sinks in that we will be packing tonight for an early morning departure and except for missing my oldest child, no part of me wishes this week to end.   To remain in this energy of laughter, love, acceptance, and peace is my strongest desire and for this chance, I am filled with gratitude.  I will be returning home physically exhausted but emotionally energized.

Lesson learned:  Life is good.  -savor every minute.

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Yella Grits

Messages come to us in those moments when we allow ourselves to be quiet enough to listen.  The act of making a simple bowl of grits and eggs, something I haven’t done in years, this morning was the method of delivery.

For those unfortunate souls who didn’t grow up eatin’ yella grits, the “yella” comes from the broken yolk of a soft fried egg mixed all up in a bowl of yummy hot grits.  It was the mixin’ of the eggs into the grits this morning – in that moment, I saw my hands expertly holding the fork and knife as they moved back and forth in a crossway pattern through my eggs and grits and my heart softened.  It was my Daddy who taught me to do this.  As a very small girl, I remember asking him, “Daddy, mix my grits?”  Most likely he never knew the admiration I held for his ability to do this so quickly, the eggs and grits within minutes blended to perfection.  He was usually otherwise engaged and the act of mixing grits was done as an aside.

It’s hard for me to remember a lot of my childhood.  The shadows often conceal the light and I choose to avoid rather than reveal.  So when a memory like yella grits washes over me, I am grateful.  My heart softens and I let go a little more of the fear, the guilt, and the regret.  Our relationship wasn’t what others thought it should have been.  Most of the time it wasn’t what either of us thought it should have been either.  But it was what it was.  It was ours.

Standing at my counter this morning, I felt the love my Daddy had such a hard time showing when I was little and I smiled, grateful for the path that is my life.

How do we live like this?

There’s no doubt about it.  Our home is in a state of chaos right now.  Over the past 2 1/2 months we have combined households.  One already cramped little house is now stuffed even more with the contents of one cramped apartment and a few extra items from a previous home and despite our best efforts of purging before merging, we still have an overflowing closet and a garage packed with items we will no longer be able to use.  In the near future, we will undoubtably become familiar with Craigslist and garage sales, something neither of us is looking forward to.

To add a little excitement to our adventure, we decided to tackle a bit of home remodeling as we merge our lives together.  For the past 2 months we have lived in a construction zone of dry wall dust and work boot tracks through our bedroom.  Every item of clothing we own has to be dusted off before we can wear it and the number of things we have lost in the confusion is slowly growing into the double digits.  I can’t begin to express my gratitude for the patience and humor my partner through all of this brings to the situation.  He noted quite accurately one morning, “Ya know babe, we’re gonna have to re-learn where everything is when this is all finished.  Like right now, I know the Q-tips are under the trey in the box at the foot of the bed and the extra toilet paper rolls are under the towels in the chair in the corner.”

He’s right.  And somehow I know, it’s all gonna be just fine.  For a brief moment yesterday, I wavered on that idea.  A close friend innocently asked as we were showing him the most recent progress, “How do you folks live like this?”  Immediately, I started to defend our situation by stating the obvious facts about remodeling and moving, etc etc…  I was thrown for a while, feeling judged and inadequate.  The question of how “we” live in this registered for me as “how does HE live in this?” which quickly morphed into thoughts of my own inadequacy.  My  home is a mess EQUALS I am a mess – not a good place to be for me.

I woke this morning with these thoughts running through my head.  I started a load of laundry, cleaned the kitchen, organized a countertop, and shuffled through a few boxes.  I looked around to see our shoes lined up on the floor and suddenly the answer to my friends question hit me.  How do we live like this?  HAPPILY!  You see, we’ve finally figured out that it really doesn’t matter so much what our home looks like.  It really only matters how we both feel when we are in it and we feel very, very happy.FL2014

Today I am so grateful for the chaos that illustrates the merging of our lives.

Gratitude for the Sadness


I thought I was gonna make it through March.  I made it past the 18th, took a sigh of relief on the 19th, and then woke on the 20th with a heavy heart.  I feel sad.  I’ve learned over the past 19 years to identify the feeling, to acknowledge it, to voice it, to let it wash over me, pass through me, and then to let it go.  Feelings are temporary.

A part of me is relieved to feel the sadness this morning.  I’d like to sit with it today.  To be alone and reflect on all of it.  I’d write a lot.  I’d read a lot.  I’d look over old photographs and remember a lot.  I’d think about his life and how it impacted mine.   I’d appreciate my children and find ways to share with them the memories.  I’d cry and I’d laugh.  I would let the tears flow with no fear that they wouldn’t stop.  I use to hold tears back for that reason.  I couldn’t let myself feel the full scope of the emotion for fear of not being able to get a grip on my self and being swept away without an anchor to hold me in this place.

I’m more grounded now.  More certain of my self and more faithful in the process.  Today I would relish in that.  I’d taste the tears as they flowed freely down my face, no need to wipe them away.  I would breathe into each one with no fear of drowning.  And with each tear that fell, I would feel his tender kiss on my cheek.  I would feel his smile on my face and his arms around my shoulders.  I would sit with that all day, wrapped in the energy of a love I am so grateful to have known.

He’s here with me now, closer than he’s ever been.  Each March I feel the strength of that love.

I’m learning to welcome this feeling, to feel gratitude that I am blessed to have known a love that 19 years later still calls to my heart with a breath of sadness.  Today I will breathe that in.  I will breathe in that love and I will breathe out gratitude.

Donald Ray Watson, aka Dad, aka Pop-pop –  6/29/1926 – 3/18/1994

My child, no matter the age.

My child, no matter the age.

BabiesWhen he was little it was easier.  Even the nights when his little body was limp, his skin red and burning with fever and I was running on little to no sleep as I kept vigil by his bed, those nights were easier than this.   I felt helpless then but at least I was able to hold him, catching what rest I could as I monitored his sleep, counting each breath through the night.  Helpless because I couldn’t control the virus that had found it’s way into my little boy’s system.  Helpless, because I could sometimes ease his discomfort, but I couldn’t cure him.  Wanting desperately to take his place, I was helpless but I was in charge.

As his momma, I decided if he went to the doctor, if he took his medicine, if he stayed in bed, or if he went outside.  I could take his temperature, apply cool cloths to his forehead, fix ginger ale with crushed ice, make chicken soup with noodles, and make certain his favorite movies were available on the VCR.  Back then when he was sick, I would put him in his bed and he stayed there until I felt he was well enough to move around in the world again.

It gave me some sort of peace to know that I was responsible for seeing that his meals were balanced and his vitamins were consumed.  If he did fall to the random virus or stomach bug, most times I could pinpoint where and when he was exposed.  I could call another mom and ask details like how many days the virus lasted for their child and what medications worked best.  There was an odd comfort in believing that I knew the source of his illnesses, as if that information alone helped to lessen the severity and shorten the time he was sick.

But now it’s different.  Now I don’t know where the viruses come from and there are no other moms to consult.  He lives six hours away with a life I know only through phone calls and text messages.  He’s a young man in charge of himself and I feel helpless, helpless and not in control.   I can suggest but I can’t decide.  I see dark circles around his huckleberry blue eyes, and motherly instinct screams, “Your baby is sick.  Take care of him.”   I suggest a visit to the doctor but he doesn’t have time so I give him more ibuprophen to mask the pain in his throat and make him promise to go to Health Services if he doesn’t feel better tomorrow.  I suggest he take a nutritional supplement back to school with him but he doesn’t have a refrigerator or time to buy one so I offer to pay but he refuses.   I can only do as much as he will allow and then I have to step back and let him go.

It’s harder now.  When he was little, I could comfort him and that in turn comforted me.  Now I can only sit and wait, sending healing energy across the miles and surrounding him with light.

Relais de l’Opera

Rome was a wonderful surprise.  I expected a tourist filled mega city of old buildings and little charm and instead I found tree lined streets, quaint cafes, and a darling hotel clerk who I shall call Pietro because much to my regret, I didn’t think to ask his name.

Having successfully navigated our way from the airport through Roma Centro, google maps announced, “you’ve arrived at your destination.”  Looking up and down both sides of the street for anything that remotely resembled a hotel and coming up empty, we decided to grab the only parking spot on the block and continue our search on foot.  Parking in Rome is a story in and of itself, but suffice to say that it is an art and Jeff became rather skilled at it.  Leaving our bags in the car, we walked back down the block and instantly saw a small plaque on the corner of a building, Relais de l’Opera, our first Italian hotel.

Following signs to the third floor, piano 3, we stepped into what we thought was perhaps the world’s tiniest and oldest elevator.  Large enough for only two people there was barely room to turn around inside.  Jeff pulled the outer metal cage closed, locked it, then closed the two inner wooden doors, and I pushed the button marked 3.  We waited.  Nothing happened.  I pushed the button again.  Nothing.  Jeff opened the doors, released the cage, relocked it, reclosed the doors, and I pushed the button again.  Nothing.  Laughing hysterically, we determined the elevator was an antique and no longer operable so we reversed the procedure and took the stairs.  Winding our way around three floors, we found a small lobby with a reception desk and a young Italian woman sitting behind it.

A little out of breath from climbing and laughing, Jeff approached the desk, “Zirker.  Checking in.”

He was met with a confused expression from the desk clerk.

“Zirker.  We have a reservation.  Hotel Relais de l’Opera.”

“No.  Next up,” she said, pointing to the next floor.

“Oh!  Sorry,” we said laughing even more.

Certain we had climbed three floors, because I had been counting, I was a bit confused but wrote it off to fatigue and unfamiliar surroundings.  We later learned that the first floor is called Piano 0…therefore, Piano 3 is actually the fourth floor from ground level, a helpful thing to know when traveling to Italy.

Greeting us on Piano 3 was a charming little lobby where we first met Pietro, a young man of around 24 years old.  Standing shoulders back and chin high, his head a bit too large, his hair a bit too short, Pietro wore a navy suit, starched white shirt and tie, and shiny black shoes.   The suit most likely once belonged to his father as the sleeves were a tad too long, the shoulders a bit too wide, and the hem a bit too long, falling mid way his thigh.  Nevertheless, he wore this suit like Armani himself had tailored it to fit his barely 5’7” frame.

“Zirker.  We have a reservation.”

“Ah, yes.  Mr. Zirker.  May I see your documentation please?”  Pietro copied the names and numbers from our passports onto a sheet of paper.  Then in a most official manner, he motioned for us to join him behind the counter, “Come.  I show you de map.”

Thinking perhaps that Pietro was going to show us a hotel map to our room, possibly even in another building, we walked the four steps necessary to reach the table behind Pietro’s counter.  Above the table was an eleven by fourteen white picture frame with a shabby chic floral print fabric inside and eight gold hooks, each housing a set of room keys.  On the table was a stack of 24 inch square city maps.

Circling a corner building, Pietro explained, “We are here.”  Circling a spot a few blocks over, “Here, Metropolitana.”  Pietro continued to circle “il Coleseum, il vaticano, Fontana di trevi,” and finally, “piazza di spagna.”

Looking up at each other and smiling, Jeff and I thanked Pietro for the information and took the map he offered to us, “Graci.”

Taking one of the key chains from the framed hooks, “Now, I show you to your room,” he said with his delightful italian accent.

We gathered our suitcases and followed behind our concierge.  Pietro led us into the hallway past the staircase and the elevator, which now appeared to be working as we watched it silently glide to the floor above us.  A few steps down the hall,  pivoting on one foot,  arm sweeping to the side, Pietro directed our attention to a wall of glass, behind which was a dark room, “Breakfast is served from seven turty to nine turty AM.”

Receiving a nod from us, he turned and walked six more steps to the end of the hall, chose one of the four keys on the ring and opened the door.  “Your room.”  Pietro stepped in about four feet to the end of the bed to allow room for us to enter.  Leaving the door open, we couldn’t actually bring our bags through the narrow walkway between the bed and the desk until Pietro stepped back out, our guide went over the conveniences in our room.  He first explained to us about the key that must be inserted into the hole by the door in order for the electricity to be turned on, another novelty for us that day.

“Here, you have café service,” pointing out the tray on the desk with a variety of cups and saucers.  “Here, you have internet access code,” showing us a small neatly typed out note placed under the desktop glass.  “Here, for you valuables,” a small safe on a shelf, “and here, mini-bar.  All free of charge!” Pietro explained, chest out, a huge grin on his face.

“Free of charge?  Wow.”  Our response pleased him and he wished us a good day.

Pietro was our first impression of Italy.  His charm even more poignant the next morning as we were greeted at the checkout desk by an older gentleman in blue jeans and a polo shirt.

Setting Boundaries

If I ever questioned what my work is at this point in my life, I certainly am not questioning it right now.  Boundaries.  I set the intention to be joyful and to grow and almost immediately I was hit square in the face with situations that required boundaries.  Boundaries that I have been reluctant to establish or to hold.  One after another, they came at me with increasing intensity in a short period of time to the point that I could no longer pretend that the issue was anything other than boundaries.

Boundaries with my family – establishing how I will allow them to treat me moving forward.  Seeing them in a light of love and acceptance, no longer with expectations that they be anything other than who they are.

Boundaries with ex-friends – accepting them for where they are and offering understanding for the pain they live while at the same time releasing myself from any obligation to save them.  Loving myself enough to sever the last ties which connect me to them and gives them even the slightest control over my life.

Boundaries in my professional life – seeing clearly where I have taught people how to treat me and owning that, but moving forward with a clear boundary of how I will be treated in the future.  Realizing that some people are in our lives to show us how we don’t want to be treated and having gratitude for the clarity these interactions bring.

White-Picket-FenceA dear friend recently shared with me a great visual to represent healthy boundaries.  She said I should think of boundaries like my house.  Who do I let in?

I picture a front yard with a beautiful white fence.  The fence has a small gate with an arbor of yellow roses.  There are some people in my life that I will only communicate with at this gate.  We can chat there until they show me that I can safely invite them for tea on my porch.  Some people will eventually be invited to sit at my kitchen table but very few are ever allowed into my bedroom.

I love this visual.  It helps me see boundaries clearly and gives me permission to keep some parts of me to myself.  Relationships don’t have to be “all or nothing”.  Some people in our lives are “across the fence” neighbors and that is perfectly acceptable.

Recently, I let someone directly into my kitchen without even a pause at my gate.  My guard was down, I trusted that this person “knew me” and in that spirit I offered honest criticism.  My comments were met with defensiveness and a twisting of facts that painted me as the bad guy.  I was labeled rude and disrespectful and told that I look down on others.  For days, I went back over emails and texts trying desperately to understand where this was coming from.  I read texts searching for the tone that sounded harsh.  I couldn’t see it.

As in past relationships, I questioned myself and looked to find fault in what I had done in order to support the other person’s position.  I doubted myself even though the evidence in front of me said otherwise.

I wanted to be liked.  When bashed with personal criticisms that had nothing to do with the issues, I crumbled.   There were no boundaries to protect me because I had not created any.  At the time, I didn’t know what that would look or feel like.

Boundaries are not designed to isolate us.  They are there to create a safe place for us to interact with others.  Relationships are not an “all or nothing” situation, if we establish the appropriate boundaries with people.  In the absence of boundaries, we tend to exit relationships that are not respectful of who we are.  Finding a middle ground is difficult but often worthwhile.

My gift is my ability to love and be open.  My truth is that I am joyful.  I am loving.  I am positive.  I am giving.  I am trusting and I am trustworthy.  I am respectful.  I am kind.  I am a good friend and I am a loyal partner.

Setting healthy boundaries means I will not allow anyone to treat me with less than the respect and the care that I deserve.  Until I’m shown that someone is capable of respecting my heart, I will not allow them into my yard.  I will meet them at the gate and we can chat there.  🙂

Skepticism vs A Closed Mind


I’m not gonna claim that I’ve found the proverbial “Fountain of Youth” or anything close to that, but these days you will find me sharing information with my friends and family about something that has in fact, changed my life.

For over four years, I’ve been drinking 2 ounces of an all natural liquid nutritional supplement each morning.  I more or less stumbled upon this product at work one morning when a co-worker bounced into the computer room at 7:45am with more energy than I had been able to muster in a very long time.

With a bit of sarcasm in my tone, I said to her, “I don’t know what you’re drinking this morning, but give me some.”  And she did.

With a huge smile she began to explain to me that the only thing she’d been doing different lately was drinking this “shot” of liquid nutrition each morning and she felt great.   For me it was a no-brainer, I’d give it a try.  So I set aside my usual regimen of vitamins for one month and started taking my shot.

Was I reckless and irresponsible for taking this supplement without first consulting my doctor?  Frankly, this thought never occurred to me until recently when a friend said he would have to talk to his doctor before he tried the Vemma I offered to him.  “Of course,”  I replied.  “And please, show your doctor the results of the studies that were done by Brunswick Labs which validate the results that I’ve personally experienced.”  Confident in the value of the information I had shared, and certain that his doctor wouldn’t have an objection to my friend tossing his bottles of over the counter vitamins for an all natural, plant sourced, liquid nutrition, I waited to hear what he found out.  In the meantime, I started thinking about this idea of asking one’s doctor before purchasing or consuming things.  I began to wonder how often people actually do this.

I can’t think of one time in my life that I called my doctor for her opinion before I bought vitamins at Harris Teeter or the GNC store.  Over the years I’ve spent hundreds of dollars on multivitamins, minerals, Fish Oils, Children’s vitamins, Women’s vitamins, protein powders, and weight loss supplements.  For me, if I bought something from a “nutritional center” (as proclaimed by the name of the store), then it was obviously good for me.

This led me to think of the many other items I had consumed over the years without consulting my doctor for her opinion.  Things like diet soft drinks, french fries, processed chicken nuggets, hot dawgs, gummy candies, margarine, microwave popcorn, artificial sweetners, ice cream, etc.  The list goes on and on.  Thankfully, I have eliminated most of these items from my diet but I know there are still areas that I could improve and that my doctor would recommend if I called her.  (Despite my efforts, there are chemicals in foods that I eat and unlabeled GMOs which slip past me.)

Not once did I call my doctor before purchasing and consuming any of these things, even though none of them were “naturally occurring healthy foods”.  I know I’m not alone here.  We, as a society will consume products based solely on marketing.  If it’s sold in a store or a restaurant, we will try it.  Rarely, do we question ‘what’ we are consuming if we are comfortable with ‘where’ we are buying it.  The recommendation of a stranger wearing a name tag in a store carries more weight than the personal experience of a close friend for most of us.  If it’s not sold in a retail store, we are skeptical.

Skepticism is not a bad thing, but close-mindedness is.  We have been programmed to trust that the more commercial something is, the more valid it is.

We complain about the system but when given another choice, we freeze, unable to open our minds and try something different.  We revert back to asking the opinion of people who are part of the system, scared of stepping out of the box.

I have tremendous respect for my doctor and I value her opinion, but I’m an intelligent woman with the ability to question and research for myself and that is what I choose to do.  Based on the evidence after four years, I’m feeling very confident about my decision.  🙂